Welcome 2008

Happy New Year to those who i known and those who know me. Lol

New Year celebration maybe a bit quiet cause just the two of us, my dear and I are celebrating for the first time on new year. Actually dont feel like going home and just wanna stay till tomorrow but is at her cousin house so no way.

Overall it been great being with her on the new year eve night. We actually start off the day by help out her cousin to design card. Went out to vivo have lunch, stroll along the shops and I get to see the bag she wanted alot. Then stopped at PCC to sit down.

Well I insist to get her the bag so i find my way to get it. haha

In the end.. she got the expression on her face I love to see haha!

Manage to finish most of the cutting and it already 5pm plus! Lol So we took a trip to her cousin house and continue the card. Her cousin friends are all teachers, PE teachers and she is the only english math teacher. Well they play mahjong, the tile pieces hitting each other is noisy and loud, while we continue on the card.

Dear nice job on the line work! haha

So after all these, I do a bit of touch up while they cut and "shaved" the photos. Haha

What's special bout this year new year is, not only I celebrating with my dear but we have zhi cha that is near the area and it worth it! They say small but its actually for two person's share. haha

Time for me to go so I jus took a bus back home. While I am in the bus my dear call me to get off and so I did =/

Reason? Cause her cousin taking us to the keppel club and I am pretty excited. The scenery is beautiful and we are standing on small golf lawn, taking pictures. From here can actually see the big chirstmas tree at vivo and the fireworks. Not only that, we both can look at sentosa fireworks too. We end the day with a group shot and her cousin boyfriend send mi to Tiong Baru for mi to get home.

Haha tmr then see my dear again. Loves

Ok UPDATE!

KK Time have past damn long and I HAVEN BEEN POSTING!!!

sorry bout this no time you see. haha

So I changed a new skin, Been 1 year in my NS life and my Tonsilitis have been cured long long long long long time ago. I even got my dear! hahaha Love her LOTS!!!

kk so far so good. Still alive and definetly kicking. Been MIA in blogging for like months and now I AM BACK! haha Guess you will be seing me posting quite often soon.

MERRY CHIRSTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO MY FRIENDS IN ADVANCE!!!!

i am kinda late to say this but no harm say it anyway haha

kk time to stop for the night. Tomorrow continue... i think. LOL

Day 2 of pain...

I cant sleep...well I did sleep but is just that I keep waking up due to pain.. I cant closed my mouth to sleep and I don't know why, maybe is cause since young I was sleeping with my mouth slightly open and maybe this is the reason why I got this infection.

I want to go outdoors but in this condition it will only worsen it. I miss the food..Lionel meant to cook all the cool dishes and chili crab just for me but what happen? I got this, Tonsillitis......

This is my second day....but the swell subside a bit. The horrible ulcer has the thick yellow and red puss coming out. I purposely cough, gurgle and spit them all out and yes it finally reduced the pain. I am happy I can finally eat and swallow. Really glad.

Well Amanda is currently working on her project. Having a near fall on a grave mistake, lucky she got the shirts phew. Hey girl all the best, even though I am not there to help you I am here rooting for you! So keep it up and dun fail! Hahah! XD

Things seems to be stable for awhile I hope I can recover sooner but I know all this take alot of time to heal. I discover I got total of 3 ulcers, one which is serious.

PAIN!!! IS BACKK OMG!!!

It relapse and is worse then ever.... i now suffering a bad case of Tonsillitis...... it all my fault for not taking care of my health.... it really bad....

I can see the ulcer...scary, bad, and serious... I am scared I am in bad shaped. The doctor told me I am unfit for nay duties these few days. That means I cant really go anyway as long as my the infection clear up or gets better.

Cant eat, sleep.... I feel miserable and painful at the same time. Pain is all I felt....Terrible pain..

I hope I recover soon. I hate this feeling of pain...Please let me recover as soon as possible...

My first day

Tuas is where i am going, the Lighthouse is where i going to stay. 1 week no communication just imagine it. Hiax...

Morning we get to know what are the supplies we are going to have when we post to there. So much of it. I am expected to learn alot of independent skills on your own so u can survive out there on that small piece of rocks n stones LOL

Today is really total boredom....wait and wait for things to do and so.....and sleepy...

After all this..waiting for time to get out of here, I was really happy when I can book out.

Then met up with amanda and dora is at her place to help out with her work. Well we later just go our separate ways. Go to spotlight at Plaza Sing, to get her materials. Haha then after all this we went to carl's junior to eat. (wow you finish up your burger o.o!) mostly you left some over but i guess not today. hahahaha Thx amanda hahaha

I am damn tired, even i blog halfway i fell asleep so I jus make a quicky one ahhaha. Dun mind. Us ahhahaha okok i m really dizzy lol hahah

An outing

Today help amanda out with her work and sort out a bit and suggestions. Well at least most of her work is done (I think). Hmmmm been thinking alot as in where am I going to be in next time and so... I guess I gonna try my luck in NYP if not Temasek in future after my days in the navy.

ALL PARADES HAVE BEEN CONQUERED AND THERE GOES MY BONES!!! HAHAHA LOL!!!

Today work out myself abit then sit down to relax and have my breakfast. I am glad my sore throat have healed and now I am back to EATING MY FAVOURITES!!! PASTA!!! SUSHI!!! FRIED FOOD!!! NOODLES!!! RICE!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH~ and it just went on and on hahahah XD. Then message her and I didn't expect she woke up a min before my message reach her...is like just nice. hahaha

We went to have lunch at compass point before serious work starts. Later we all went out, meet up with chong and jeremy. Then after that we went to the airport to view the atmoshpere. Went to Popeye's to eat. Poor jeremy got food torture treatment from the marsh potatoes as they are being eaten slowly by amanda and chong hahahaha. Then we go view at the mini hall at the planes

Well I have to go back early so I take the train back. Hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

Rat cooking movie night

The day was nice, met up with amanda, but is rained later so gotta wait for it o stop or simmer down. Then move off to plaza singapura. Gone to cathy to go check for time slots and then had dinner with her at Ajitei then a second round of desserts at Ben & Jerry's. Love the fudge.

Later Ah tat came and then we go to TCC there to slack again while waiting for Lionel and Tian. Yup, technically bored. Lionel surprised her with both hands tapped on the back. hahaha Sadly Lionel didn't watch with us together for the movie. Later we met up with sherry and watched Tian and Lionel eat at Carl's Jr

Got the tickets, but show time is at 2.05am. We all practically slack and waiting at starbucks. Can't take much of sitting around in the end I ask Tian if I can talk to him and then we both started walking around. Its a night I will remember.

Ratatouille, the movie we watched, nice and emotional. The story is really sweet and a great ending. Almost teared... a must watch for those who haven't seen it yet.

Well everyone was tired and so, including me. It seems things are going off handed and I would say in time to come and its not long.

The pain I have to bear with it....

Sore throat seems like its easy to cure but mine is a serious case. I cant even speak or swallow my saliva cause if I do, the sharp pain comes. The worse thing is it just happen suddenly. Ok I admit, late nights no sleep and lack of water, and I guess I derserve it.

Its been a week and my throat is swelled up inside, no improvements or healing... well this is bad. Can't eat and all.

But now it seems to subsided and its getting better. I can eat kinda lots of stuff but I control myself to eat non-spicy food.

Hahaha well I hope to get well soon.

Tiring stay over

Hahaha. Man thanks to amanda I guess my fashion sense is going to be on my paycheck every month. Its time I find myself a set of new wear for myself. ahhhhh~ Thanks amanda XD

Woke up early as possible to meet her in the end I guess I woke up late. Was planning on exercise at her place but it late anyway so yea. Joy call up and ask if we guys are going any place and we joined her later. Lionel called up to amanda and she was very happy, missing her bro so much. hahaha Lionel hope you can come back soon dude. Everyone missed you. Things don't seem enjoyable when you are not around.

We went to marina square for a walk and some window shopping and soon ah tat came to join us. I seen many items which i may get in future, probably next month =D We then slack awhile at Yoshinoya and have lunch there too. We some how meet up with Chong, Ian and Sam. Hahaha fate i guess? lol

When we went on for a while and things seem to hit back to amanda, memories are hard to forget... In any case we just go and meet up with Chong and the rest again later.

Sam gotta go and we stroll around the mall one last time before we head to Pan Pacific Hotel and have a elevator ride and also to the pool. The moon is beautiful...

Yup our conclusion came to a stay over at first, chong's place but we later changed to amanda's place since I think chong side got some difficulties. Anyway we just meet up later with everyone at Compass point. Jeremy came too hahaha. Sweet~ We had our time there. I slack in starbucks while waiting for everyone then amanda came and we moved to 7 eleven to wait for the rest.

TIRING, ok la for my case, I don't feel tired and neither the rest too until around 3+am then they start to sleep... they are quite a commotion at first but when they are tired means they are down. DAMN YOU GUYS ACTUALLY SNORE THAT LOUD!!!!!

Since its cold I went outside to the hall to rest in the sofa instead. I felt peace for the time being hahaha. Woke up 5+ and take a snooze back at the air con room with them and they are still SNORING!!! Then freezing cold, I woke up again at 6am and message her telling her her I need to go. I guess she is tired too and sleeping soundly, don't really want to wake her up. I dozed off again. 6.30am woke up,go to her room and say I need to go...don't really like to give a rude awakening but need to head back home. Sorry I cant join you all for breakfast maybe later or next time ba Hahaha.

Well I guess it all ends well for the day. Will see how it is for tomorrow. Cya!

What have been going on?

I been through quite alot of things recently and I got quite alot of things going on too.

Things which have happen I cant turn back time. Choices and paths have to be taken at the right time. Endings can be drastic and emotional and yet may be beautiful and great. Consequences to the guilty, Rewards to the kind. And yet all this requires three things to happen; and is none other than, heart, mind and time.

Wonder why I believe and yet I believe time really heals things which are hurt, even badly ones. I treated time as a friend and I wished he is my friend too. Who wont want a cool friend like time?

Trust, is what I have and I wished people have it too. Heart is the main source of almost every emotional things, the Mind is just telling you the choice you have to make and yet not all choices the Mind predicted will be good and yes sadly to say its always the bad choices more.

Respect, is not only to the person you trusted most but also to others whom you never seen or heard before. Mutual respects are the most important when it comes to encouragement for a couple or to be.

Believe, not only what you see but also feel and understand, making the right choice in future to avoid further darkness in life. Its true to a person believes may be straight directly downright to earth but also it may changed to another perspective view with more experiences.

Chance, may be big or small, for I would still go by it, betting and yet also risking to believe in that percentage of chance hoping it happen. This is where miracles came in. The stronger the believe and will, the chance may be at a higher percentage.

Doubts, are hindering questions and walls of the heart and especially mind. Bound by doubt is bad and it is doubt that stop and prevent things to go further but also a changing a choice to another, to either better or worse.

Judgement, are questions that sooth the mind and rid off doubts. Yet it may be hurting to realise the truth in the end. Time comes in to sort things out for the Mind but at a very slow but effective rate.

Truth, are the most hurting things ever for the Heart and yet it could be joy and enjoyable.

Fate, is it a chance to be at that time, doing the right or bad thing, meetings? Fate is a start and also could be an end. During the time where Fate start and end is the time of choices and path a person decide to do or be. Endings varies...


Why I say all these? and yet I may be wrong?

Cause others have their own opinions and point of view. You cant force a person to break will or change their mind set, for it is for them to have the will to change themshelves at the right time.

I believe in my rights, a changed person I am and also I will be in future. Things sometimes dont go my way either even so for others. I choose alot of decisions and at the same time helping others to be sure. Let Time and fate shall show the way--------- Believe in a miracle, Believe in time and fate and my will in choices.

An Emotional day

I don't why, I just feel right and it just came back..

Today I some how wish to be alone to do my work but it seems like Amanda seems to be trouble so suggested that we meet out with Lionel to TCC at city link while on the way find Dora. Hahaha we just cant find the most suitable seat. They all seem to have fun while drinking their coffee latte and also while I pick up my work to draw.

Dora bring me go to a little shop right round the corner of level which sell gasaphon and I found some really rare stuff there. I got Jazz and Bumblebee for my bro and then we went off to mini toons to see some soft toys. So got up and picked an elmo and oscar for Amanda and Lionel. Then I saw eeyore by the corner and keep on patting his head. LOL While I am paying, she told me she will be at action city waiting so I took the opportunity and pick a nice eeyore for her. =)

Dora got me a Gloomy Bear!! and its green! I didnt expect it and I was surprised! hahahah (thanks alot for its my favourite) and she got the octopus for PJ which erm later committed suicide in a pool of soy sauce with wasabi. Sotong~ I didnt gave her the eeyore until at the bus when we meeting up with Tian wei and Sherry.

But in the end I somehow felt down and they try their best to cheer me up and so but things just get the better of me. I walk out of sakae sushi for no reason making everyone worrying...I am sorry...just that my chest feels heavy and I need a breather outside..sorry..
They really practically trying to cheer me up during the bus ride and I was laughing thanks to their actions and their conversation. We wait up at the billy bombers there at cineleisure and order some drinks while waiting and Amanda is a bit off..at one time she start meowing the next she is barking and later she shout "ORDER PLS!!" scary....

We hang over at Dora place to drink and I am drunk, well I can still think but I can't walk properly..I am a weak drinker, my legs and knees are aching. At least my feelings is a bit lighter but it is still there... so my counseling begins.... the next thing I know another casualty hit and is Amanda. In the morning I felt better and I begin able to talk more. I wanna clarify my doubts and I still have that faded feeling after all. Dora was tired cause she took care of us today for the whole night I doubt she have any sleep..poor her...At last I pluck up enough courage to hug her and tell her thanks for everything she did today for me and the rest.

I immediately went home, go for a bath and then blogging for the day. Thanks to all my friends who are there and once again I apologised for my behaviour which I guess that I ruined fun and all. Sorry...

NDP

Its the day and its finally here. All was nervous but psyched up to march in front of the thousands and the president himself. I GOT ME SELF A GOODIE BAG!

I double check almost everything I need to and just board the bus. Tight security check once more and we just settle everything down. Lunch was KFC and after that we are told to be considerate of others while changing to our uniforms.

Two runs we had today and our row was worried...cause the march pass is terrible, we some how cant just get the timing and the line in a perfect row. All of us are not at ease. After that we all left it to ourselves to the actual show. Praying hoping we can make a good show.

After dinner we are told to change up and get ready cause the Chief of Defense Force is coming to see us. After this we have a video taken and send to our Chief of Navy as a message. Soon the real show starts. Proceed to the next exhibition hall and take up ammo and then a thorough check from head to toe, peak cap to george boots. LOL Then we move off to the stadium.

Just so summarize, We move in to the parade. Mistakes can't really be seen far but by individual its noticeable... to be honest I am nervous but the nervous I had triggered the hidden energy which I used to stand firm and straight. In the end we got a really great march pass, our row was straight and the arm swings are together and we are in pace with our commander.

After all this, got messages from my friends saying they saw me on tv and so. (thanks to all those that congratulate me) and so call lionel to ask where he is and also my family. I didn't know my god mother and father plus my god sister's family is at my place watching me.

It all paid off and I am have a great feeling of achievement. I finally get what I wanted and this memory will be etched into my mind forever as a story for my future generation.

Last Rehearsal for NDP

FINALLY---------!!!!! It s the last and final rehearsal for the NDP parade. Nothing much actually, we just do three rounds of firing and thats all for the day, THEN WE GOT LIBERTY! WOOO!!!

Yea so much bout it, it brings back memories more like rememberance of all the training we have been throught since the month of May. COC, RSN DAY, SAF DAY and NDP and soon another parade awaits for us later after a week. All the tough endurance we been through paid off, we even can stand under real serve temperatures and most of us made it. With this endurance, I believe I can wait longer in any long queues or some events where there is no seats left but to stand. LOL! XD

Well here are some photos of our NDP (preview days) and SAF day (past).

SAF DAY

Sir!

Trouping of colours

GOH NAVY which I am inside

2hrs of standing, the perfect endurance training =)

The colour party

Commandos

March pass

Close up...

Even closer up lol

NDP Rehearsal

Our sirs in parade

On the road we rule..


Salute!

March off-

Casing of colours

At the holding area preparing to move in

READY!

Firing blanks

Top view

Well this is all now the day is only 2 days so i gotta prepare!

NDP Rehearsal..(going to end?)

I almost overslept cause I slept late last night while playing my friend's PSP. hahaha~ I at least manage to woke up in time, get a quick shower and then draws arms on time. phew~ (actually I got time to even eat noodles..lol)

My bet that actually today shouldn't have any rehearsals but I heard it was a demand by popularity that's why..I got 3 preview tickets just right before the day of the preview, which is today...-.-" In the end I gave it to my God sister and her family to go watch. I didn't expect the preview was not...what I expected...

Today's lunch and dinner was to my liking, rice and KFC, FINALLY THERE IS SOME RICE! ALL THIS WHILE IN REHEARSALS I HAVE BEEN EATING IS BREAD!!!!! AHHHH!! *ahem. So I am quite overjoyed actually since the fact I get to eat rice in rehearsals other than bread. We got new freebies too, all the while during our time in training we got freebies like instant noodles, towels, detergent and even styling gel. Its not much but its still good. lol

We have a CD of our photos in both SAF and NDP rehearsals and a song album of our NDP collaborations. Finally I can see how I look like in the photos...hmmm till I rip the CD if not I can't see.

Anyway not much happening today at the parade except we have to change our uniforms twice cause of photo taking =)

I am damn tired after all the rehearsals and the first thing I had in mind was my huggable bolster and my bed and pillow, waiting for me at home....

NEW CAR!!

YES LA!! My dad just change the old car to a new one! Kia Carens, big, spacious and tall, just nice for my family especially my dad =D. Havent been on a trip in that car yet but soon it will be. hahaha

Total Area Cleaning (my working corner)

My corner have been collecting dust since I got no time to do some area cleaning of my own so i did...yea and it took me long though. To tell u the truth its not even finish yet. Took me some long hours to dust up the place, Shelves and corners.

My Work station + Recreational station lol.

My bro watching some anime.

Before Cleaning up...(its gonna be a long day..)

Taking out dusting dusting dusting~

Clearing up my work area.

Dragging the Vacuum cleaner.

Careful~ Be a collector you just need to be gentle on things like this ('~')

Sector CLEARED! Ready for Vacuuming!

Wow..you should have seen my floor...

All done for the table but my chibi models haven been displayed yet..

As you can see only my table is free from any unnecessary things and can continue to work in a better environment LOL. Going to continue some other day...I hope.

July review

Since I got so many out dated things to put, I just practically cant be bother since its already past it's date line. So how was the month of July? Lets see...erm.../shuffle shuffle rustle.

As the days past I feel great. Most of my weights I been carrying is going off one by one especially the military side. My tests are over and I wanna know where I will be posted to. Hope is somewhere I can actually enjoy in. Neither places I posted to will be near..in fact its real far....but i wanna get out of the previous camp due to all the sad and hateful memories and hope to have some worth keeping ones at my new workplace. I feel more and more lethargic every day in camp...maybe cause of the rehearsals, my aching body ( maybe I need to have my motivation again to work out my body and mind) and the thoughts of posting out. Will I be in a camp or an isolated land of no communication? Who knows? Only the person who wants us there knows...LOL!

My life outside of camp is getting better. I start to socialise more, trying to take in step by step. As I move along, I am becoming more and more aware of the outside world. Peace is in my heart and people whom I know will be there smiling. Though rough times I have and I bet most guys will have it too, a time where boys become men is sure not an easy task especially finding your true self. I seen many changes if the tamed become wild. It sometimes disturb me for I find that this is not right. I hope things go for better. IT BEEN REAL FUN I would say gradually I hope more of this outings can be happen especially I hope there is one after the NDP. Waiting for a reply. Though it maybe expensive but I can handle it since I am getting my NSF pay every month.

NDP IS COMING!! WOOOOO!!! They say we can have goodie bags and a CD of the NDP show. Our warrant also have pictures of us in both SAF and NDP. One is enough for each TC to spread and have among themselves. YAY!

HAHAHA in fact this month of my blog review I got plenty things to tell but they are not really related in this post. I rather create a new post to blog it. So I guess this is about it so I am gonna end it here.

Signing off....

8th Rehearsal for NDP (2nd final?)

Ahhhhh.... I woke up will lots of aches and my dreaming bout the upcoming event on Sunday but still this is a rehearsal and you gotta have to give it all the best. YUP YUP.

Yea aches...from my shoulders to knees and is really uncomfortable, kinda like a rusty joint with no lubrication or rubbing of fixed gears. I was early for once, real early and I like wait there at the training shed there for quite a while while waiting for our transport to arrive.

Today we were told that there is a strict security check, I guess they are taking it seriously now since a lot of things have happen recently. We went through and settle down at our holding area. Lunch was KFC but is fish ole..hiax but I expect something more filling but no..just bread. Since the security is really strict, we can't afford to go to the other toilet to change and of course, with so many contingents and GOH, who wont say the toilet will be packed??

It raining later but we still carry on with our training, even I got not much mood in it I still have to go through anyway...tiring. After the first run, cause of heavy downpour, we all are stuck in the area in the stadium for a period of time, yea my sleeping time. I was aching everywhere but we cant lie on the floor cause we are in open public and I tried VARIES of position in sleeping, which include of holding the rifle. In the end none really work out well, my neck is aching and I got a numbers of leg craps and pin and needle feelings... I am so tired that I don't even budge..Then we continue later, after the rain is over, a full run and then back to the Suntec exhibition holding area. Due to the security, we are to hand over the magazines we left over, may it be blank or still have rounds, we are to give it back for safe keeping by them.

Dinner! and is BREAD AGAIN! waaa....why no rice......I am tired of bread already. I only find that today they actually have doughnuts for us. LOL and we got a fun bag! I thought is the goodie bag but is not...is just a bag with a packet of instant noodles and a bag with a box of soap powder and detergent. (erm..you call this a "fun" bag?) but anyways I have complete use of all these so it great. They also preview the NDP shows which are filmed on previously previews. I gotta say but we look UNIFIED and COOL with white =PpP. Our performance is going to be better and better. Times up! and I need to changed into the no.1 but like I said the toilet is bound to be packed and also my uniform is white.... -.-""

My stomach is acting up again..and by the time i finished everything including changing, it time to fall in for inspection. We all just let them check, our uniform and rifle, draw a mag and they watch us load. After all this we are told not to go anywhere even the toilet and soon after that we all moved off.The parade end off nicely except for one of the GOH's shoulder's ampulet somehow fell off...

MAN I WAS TOTALLY BEATED! after the casing I was really damn tired.. then we just change up and then pack up ready to go back home.

Days progresses by and soon the real day was like a week away and yea gotta do it nice and sweet with no mistakes. How i want to sleep...

7th Rehearsal for NDP

Ahh same thing again and I am not gonna say it but today is a bit different. Why? Well... cause its RAINING! CAT1!

Yup. CAT1 all the way till 12+pm. So what we do? Err.. we jus slack in the exhibition hall 6 at level 4. We are suppose to be in the usual holding area but we are hold up at level 4 specially today cause there are road shows and book exhibition today at level 3. I observed that it seems like the whole level has one Gents near our area and the rest are Ladies. (Gotta actually walk a distance to get there.)

So it raining but we still gotta train so we are practicing in the air conditioned hall and its fast, only the 4 GOH only. The training is split up to 2 sets, one for us and one for the marching contingent but its not the SAF but the psycological defense group. Then later the economical group came to join in the practice.

We have red and comfy seats today and that was the first. Also we got more time to rest which means we slack all the way to 4.45pm, almost to 5pm, before we actually change to our ceremonial no.1. Ummmm....Pizzaa~

Ok- Think the rest is the same, march off, hold up, march in and perform drills to perfection. Only thing I encounter is my boots....THE WHOLE SOLE CAME OFF. Cause the guy behind me was step the back and soon I feel something is not rite then the next thing I knew is the sound of "rip off" and I was like Sianzz-- Lucky I got my last spare....I hope I can survive with it.... please I wanna be in THE PARADE.....don't let my training go to waste!!!

Done and thats bout it today. Its all coming to an end soon and they say they will give us a CD of the NDP and the photos taken by our warrant, can't wait for that day to come but also by the time we have already posted out... I wonder what we are going to do when we still have NDP rehearsals, be a Office boy? LOL!

5th and 6th NDP Rehearsal

Same thing mostly but now after the SAF day there is 2 rehearsals in a week. I just want to get post out. Things are just getting out of hand... I need a break...

The whole day was same on the Wednesday training but short. Cause there is no marching contingent so the training is only solely on foot drills and firing procedures. But the Saturday is a bit different and now all the Saturday's rehearsals are all full dress...

The whole day on Saturday was bit sianz (who won't? Who don't want home? a block leave for rest after a course exam?) Well at least ever since I join the GOH I never regret being in it and I endure all the way till this day for the NDP and I am not going to stop now. Even may my bones injured or a spine problem, so be it, I am still going to march and its the only thing in MY WHOLE OF GOD DAMN NAVY LIFE which I appreciated most and something which I want to do. Something at LEAST to have a good memory in my military life.

We have pizza for lunch today! Cool but small portion, only one big slice and 3 chicken wings and a garlic bread cube LOL kinda cute though the way they pack. I met up with Lionel and to my surprised I thought I heard Amanda's voice. Thought I was hearing things but when I hear "up" and yea they were there. Amanda, Chong, Lionel and even Joy! yup she is till the same. After the sheathing of colours then they all came up and find me. Haha took a few pictures with them and I tell them I can't stay and talk to civilians in this uniform.

Some Pictures she send over:

The photo is the other way round lol

Joy, Me, Amanda (I look sad, I know I cant smile)

Lionel presenting me lol

There is more but I got no spend to edit so I just put the best here. (lots are blur due to motion). Wanted to meet them out later but it seem to be too late, we are hold up due to some problem at hand. Back to camp my mind was blank, too tired to think and I forgot to sign which makes it a bad thing to ruin my day.

By the time I finish its already so late so I call and told them I am going back. Call a cab and the next thing I know my day actually wasn't that bad after all. The driver was a friendly Malay, he talks bout what I been doing and why so late, he even offer me to take an extra mile to drive me home but I say there no need to as I need to get take aways for my dinner. He related he past life in the NS serving as a police.

We chatted along the way bout the rehearsals for ndp and marching. He was once in it too. At first I thought he live nearby my area (cause its already so late and mostly taxi drivers make their last drop off near their home), but to my surprised he lived at Yishun and he just so happen to pick my call cause he drop off a passenger at the ferry terminal and he attend and help his relative by driving him all the way to the east area for his event. If everyone in the world is this nice and helpful, It will be real wonderfully peaceful and a great place to live in.

Sadly its not...even for those who tried so hard and yet they are not even recognised and yet treated badly. Guess this is what they say first appearance counts. Blah- I don't think so...

I had enough for the day and I find that is all great after all. Now for my sleep.

My out of date posts

Yea the SAF day posts and after those post are outdated posts cause I have no time to type anything due to the rehearsals, test and yea....more more more stuff of the military.

Well put that aside at least now I got some time to type out some stuff which I want them in my blog so yea. ZZZZZZ I am just really tired this few days cause of the marching, so instead i just summarize a bit.

These few days have been studying, yea studying lots so as to pass and pass out and FINALLY go to my vocation. At least one thing I know is that is at TUAS, which is damn far...really far. (one end to another end for my case). Well been there once and the place got lots of gold bars on the shoulders, 1 - 3 at least...scary... the food is there not bad though.

The written tests are much more easier to pass but hard to understand. The course notes are thick but there is some only necessary information we need to know, after all we don't fire missiles or shoot yea so why we need to cover it anyway. The topics were mostly learned from the pc itself so the course notes are just reference and revision.

The tests have drawn real close and not only I got rehearsals but also my own projects. I have to part with my own hobbies and be alert to the rehearsals and PAY MORE TO STUDY CAUSE I NEED TO PASS IT!! So it begins....

All right the first test paper we had, was not what I expected it to be, as in that easy. Though I didn't get the marks I wanted (and the worse case is what i study didn't came out ~.~) but i still passed. But the second test is a bit more difficult for me and is a short paper. To me this paper is really hard for me to pass cause whatever I learn DIDN'T CAME OUT!!! zzzzzz..... Argh.... I only hope for retest after the paper is finished that day.

Harbour practical I heard our results and one of my class mates told us no one fails and I was said to be top five, but its no big deal cause our class has only 11 people so its doesn't make any difference. LOL XD All I let to pass is the practical exam at Tuas.

I tried my best to absorb all I learned and put it to use. I did well I say on the real thing and I know more better. Tried to listen hard for all the fast and incoming important information from my course com's mouth and practice on the machine to get the feel of whats going on. Then revise abit and wait for the test tomorrow.

The Test Day is here and I am waiting at the vessel for the darn test...so I just doze off while waiting. We drew lots so I just so happen to be 2nd last...zzzzzz....I don't understand why they took so long to finish and the test drag all the way till 4+pm and still got 2 haven take the test yet, i guess is the machine problem, I was half way through mine till it hang then i have to answer the questions verbally...zzzzz

RESULTS IS OUT, I can say the whole class passed out of this course(I assumed). For the first time, when I don't like to go to tuas, now I REALLY WANT TO! I have my reasons =)

Yup and so it concludes this post and I gonna end it cause I want my well earned rest. Nite.

SAF DAY

FINALLY OUR SHOW! YES! OUR WEEKEND IS BURNED CAUSE OF THIS! YEA SO THIS HAVE BETTER BE A SHOW I MUST DO WELL IN! BRACE YOURSELVES! BRACE BRACE BBRRAACCEE~~~~!!!!!!

Ok the start of the day was early. We got our stuff and ready to go. I make sure myself is awake while on the bus but i cant help it but to sleep cause too comfortable.... ahhh~

The first thing I do when I board off the bus is to get a can of Red Bull and then sit in the holding area reading my friend's book. Our final briefing and we are told to do our best cause the president is coming and our discipline have to be at top standard and maintained. Keeping myself awake is a very easy cause the weather is hot on that day, even with the clouds covering the sky and my secret item to keep me going, MY HOLY SKETCHBOOK AND MY CASE OF STATIONERY. Yup the best thing for me to pass time real quickly is DRAWING! My favourite hobby =) (I know till now been saying posting my work but I till didn't LOL).

We also received a token of appreciation from the SAF Day, an encased NS 40 gold coin. Though its only for the spectators and the guests who are viewing the parade but they specially make extra for us cause we participated in the parade and for all the training we been through. This how the coin look like:

front or back

back or front (how would I know which is head or tails..they just put it in a small box) OMG THE PLANE IS GONE!!!

Nice eh? Sorry bout the blurred images (my camera ran out of batteries so yea have to take it quickly and I think my settings are wrong). A memento for all the hard work we been through, they give this coin out to us after our first short sequence run and while we having our break.

The weather was fine, I love early evenings they have a nice cool blue scenery makes you feel relaxed. I took the whole of rest time rather than sleeping but drawing, to keep myself fully awake for the REAL thing. We change out our army no.4 to our ceremonial no.1 and of course I did rather change later cause our navy uniform is all white....

We have a full check on our uniforms, those who have been check will be check again if they have gone to the toilet. Told to remove all sharp, metal or any items like handphones and keys in our pockets, (our bayonet is sharp, do we have to remove it? its kinda heavy too. LOL XD) just a thought. So after all this we are prepare to move to the parade square and wait. Took our last photo shoot in our uniform as a remembrance ( Hope to get it soon...) and we wait for the command to march in. =D

Soon the whole thing started and all was not in vain cause of all the hard work we put in it. It ran really smoothly and our endurance for standing have already toughen us up, so this parade no one will fall. NEVER FALL!! My first time seeing the president up real close too. XD After all the prize giving and speeches, we gave the show one last splendid march off and off we go, heading back to the holding area and ready for home =)

This SAF day was a memorial event and will be etched in my NS life memories. It an achievement and another story in my life that I will cherish.

Fnal rehearsal for SAF day

Yup, the last and final rehearsal for the SAF day parade. Woot!

Definetly we pull through this off easily but we are tired from all the days marching so is kinda sloppy if you ask me. The sound is not there, still we put in effort so thats the best point.


Two rehearsals and once you finished, you get to go back. YAY! Prolonged endurance and only one collapse due to heat exhaustion and the tightness of the peak cap. Its no joke that the weather is really blazing. Blazing so hot that water evaporates immeadiately after you pour it the stone pavement. yea...

All ends quickly, Half day off is the reward we got and I somehow forgot the rest of the day. crapzzz...my bad memory...

6th Rehearsal for SAF day

I AM BACK, after being burned to a crisp and test and exams all just happen on this week so i cant have any time to do my stuff not to mention even going home. I miss my bolster.

Yup, 6th and 2nd last rehearsal. The final day is really closing in so the rehearsal today is all about the sharp movements and strict discipline of the drills.

Like been marching for a week. My class is like really free cause 5 of us, 3 GOH and 2 from marching contingent, are really tied up cause of the rehearsal and so. Yup, so it will be over.


Nice day today but the weather is seriously getting alot hotter afterall it the month of June, mostly its hot but it seems abit too much nowadays. really... OK so lets see.. once we reach to SAFTI we are brief bout today's rehearsal.

Start off a run then the real thing. Same routine but the day was delay due to weather, not because of rain but HEAT! OMGZ!!! They took the temperature and it was 41 degrees- talk about heating the pan for frying. Yea this few days the weather is damn hot so got to drink plenty of water. Can even feel your skin smoking.. heat radiation... burn~

OK as the days passed, we already got used to the prolonged standing and is like no kick to us. I hear that standing can lose weight too especially under a hot sun. LOL. well the SAF day is drawing close and so is my exams....(aww man..all those numbers and codes and definitions..FAIL LOH~ LOL...I m so gonna get owned by the papers). I been praying hard in hopes of passing lol.

OMG =.=

Well i finally get the post up and the tags updated but the videos are gone....crap. Doing some remedy.

I wont be coming back these few days maybe till nxt week or so. I hope i at least get a liberty on this friday.

5th Rehearsal for SAF day

Almost to the end of the SAF parade. Soon it will be over. yay~ zzzzzz....

Today is like most days but we only got 2 full rehearsal run but yet again.... well not really full at all....We start off the day with a briefing at the warrior's hall. Then lunch...(the food is indescribable)... still we got to eat otherwise we will fall down one by one... I loved the weather today. It raining. If only if there is a strong wind blowing and dark heavy clouds, it would be nicer =)

See, it happens anyway, It just rained, right before we marched in for our full run rehearsal. The irony is that it stopped just after the parade ISM says "we move on to the march pass". But due to our sloppy performance, we have to go in again and this time a run with the trouping.

A long break before the final full run at 5pm. I kept myself awake the whole time, drinking red bull,h2o and water. I hydrated myself a bit too much I guess. So we just went over to the FUP and wait there. All is well today except the drills, the sergeant behind my friend is sneezing over him and yea... he needs to wash his no.4 after he get home.

Ended well, fine bad weather in the night, red sky, cold and nice and all is sweet to the bitter end of the day. =)

Oh yea, forgot to mention: our weekend is burned due to SAF day on the 1st July. hiax...

Something is wrong....

Well my post didnt show up..wonder what happen. hope somebody will help out with this problem. Even my tags...

WHY bother?

Do you understand what I am saying here? =) Muhahahahaha

Fragile

A lone beetle, sliver and beautiful crawling its path, trying to get over to the outer side. The magnificent sliver beetle, its big and strong, moving at a pace of its own. Towering over small ants which seem to be 80 times smaller than him. Slow and steady he made his way over the vast concrete desert.

A sudden quake, alert the startled beetle of immediate danger. He is still far away from a safe area. His only chance is to move quickly and decisively. But the area is too wide for any cover, all he can do now is dodge. The ground shook as the black and white heavy boots emits a shock wave as they move along. All he do is brace for now.

He stood there for a moment to see it past. Few of the boots notice him and avoid stepping on him but all was not so kind. One step landed on the poor beetle. He suffer immense pain as his legs were crushed. The beetle lost his mobility as well as speed. More steps took aware of him and avoid.

The beetle sense he got no chance to run and defend himself, finally expose to the last final crush of a blind step of a white George boot. Immediate death to the fragile beetle even though his body was hard and still maintain intact but the soul was lost. The once Beautiful and dominating insect now lay wasted on the concrete floor as more blind steps step over and kick him. In no time the once silvery shell of magnificent was crush to its insides, showing a brown patch of shedding....

(My heart skipped a beat as I actually watch something like this happen to it. I cant help it. It was too late for me to save the little guy... I feel sad knowing the fact that life is so fragile, like a glass which is easily shatter. The only way i suppose for this glass prevent from being destroy is having a strong mind and will in heart to prevent any obstacles from making it shatter. We are not small like the beetle but we do in fact have a Strong mind of making things happen and a Mighty will to keep us going. if both are lost, a precious life might have gone.)

4th Rehearsal for NDP

A GREAT DAY! but lousy ending...zzzzzz

AT 4AM EXACTLY TODAY (wow its just getting not only longer but earlier...way early), we woke up and draw arms and move to suntec exhibition hall, our holding area for the day. Since there is no breakfast, I feel abit giddy but I am awake to know my surroundings. We assemble for the shedding of colours, a respectful ceremony that took place early in the morning (we will be also doing this on the actual day) but they only need 40 present to respect the ceremony so the tall guys, 5 from each side, left and right, were taken in...which means I am in...zzzzzzz

After which, we were told to march outside and then practice again bout 3 times over. Sometimes I know our guys are lack of sleep, yea I am one who has problems on that, but they don't have to a pain in the neck to speak to others in a tone they want a fight right? Sheesh...since they tell me off, I gave them a rotten standard to shut them up. No point argue to people like them. Action beats words.

So enough of that and finally WE GOT BREAKFAST! oh yes by then we are famished. After breakfast, all the people in the holding area practically all went to sleep immeadiately till 11am. (got myself full 4 hours of sleep back in an air conditioned hall) but the cement floor is really uncomfortable so my both my arms and legs got cramped and numb but I still got my sleep so its ok. =D *crack

Hahahaha this time we get to see the land vechicles when we marched in. Tanks (they look like toys LOL! =x). Don't know what kind is it but Ah Tat knows, I think =/ yup. Next the right markers, 3 others and me, and the 4 left markers got a warm up. THE SUN IS BURNING!!! >.<

but it end fast so its ok. Fire the rounds and then dinner. No KFC and MILO today =(

Right, so we end our afternoon rehearsal, next we get ready for last full run. WE STORM THE STREETS TODAY!! WOO HOO!! NOTHING GONNA STOP US NOT EVEN TRAFFIC!!! Is really a great feeling that everyone is watching us and taking pictures as we marched smartly around the Suntec city area to the stadium. WE RULED. XD. The celementi primary school kiddos wore their cute costume of the sea, swirly starfish, diamond stingray, pink fishes, red seahorses and more~ WE CONTINUE TO MARCH TO THE STADIUM and then once reach there we took a rest and then the full run begins. They now have the lighting on and its blinding to our eyes. Not only that today also have the Fighters air display while we sung the national song. After all the firing is done, we march off smartly and once again, STORM THE STREETS. WAHHAHAHHAHAA!!!

Hahaha its a great day for me. I enjoy it alot today but when it comes to going back home something bad happen. And once again is like a de javu. but founded so nothing else to worry bout.

ALRIGHT! time for me to get my rest now been a great day and i hope tomorrow will be better.

I feel better

Today not much happening, I only went to the Changi General Hospital for my medical appointment which I waited for so long.

I have a check up on my ankle and the doctor suspect a ligament tear while for my knees they seems normal. The doctor want to give me a status for excuse RMJ but I refuse. I made my way till now and if you ask me to give up on the marching is like asking me to jump off a building. Thus I don't want the status even if the doctor advise me to have it.

I have another scan on the ankle again and since I refuse the status, the doctor advised me to do the physiotherapy instead. At least this can help to train my ankle to stabilise and walk normally again.

For the whole entire day, I have an emotional ache in my heart. Must have feel miserable from yesterday. I was breathless... and frustrated. Why? I cannot say now.

I feel better now after I talk it out, at least for now.

TOMORROW IS A NIGHTMARE!!!! WHY MUST WE WAKE UP SO EARLY??? 4am+ IN THE MORNING!!! ARGGHHHH~

That's for tomorrow NDP parade and that will be another post- see ya till then!

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A story, A reflection

An uncontrolled berserker, deadly intention, filled with miserable feelings and hate itself. This is my sad and regretful 2nd personality.

Through this months of torment, I would say, bring birth to this personality. "He" who is in me waiting to burst out at anytime. In defence or be insulted, "he" will be there. "He" who watches the surroundings and other strangers, watching whose a friend or foe. A dark side of me.

This "He" is another side of me who did not reveal himself since my old school days. Once surfaced, no one can stop it unless I control my feelings and grasp understanding of the situation. Though I am a person who carry on his daily life events, leading a normal life but life ain't just sweet and favourable to most people. I, a person who seek in my interests and succeed in goals, have "him", this side I kept for long years which i don't want to show my friends.

"He" is not bad at all... The real "He" is a nice and caring person in fact, "he" cares for his family and friends most dearly. Protects and help them out in need if a problem or obstacles surfaced. A great person who loves to encourage friends and love his family entirely. Willing to sacrifice all he have to protect those he call friends and family. I am proud of him in fact.

I respect everybody, may it be a child or a elderly. Those I don't give them respect are those who toy or make fun of others weaker than themselves, yet the fact they are no different. "He" watches them in vain, I can't do anything here.

I made a precious promise and I will not break it.

Time heals. Things just gets better but not all 100%. Life like this. Many faces, all walks of life, many different people. You just gotta go through one day. "He" help me out alot and I stood my ground ready. I take no pity. I take in all they spit at me. Just bring it.

I hoped an angel enter my life to ease the weight. She is someone I wished to be with all the way. Will I ever confront her...can I? Afraid... but...so close.... yet...

Looking forward is what I do. This post is a reflection for myself to look upon. How much I changed, memories and so forth. For now I just doing what I have to do. I hope this 2 years past quickly. My friends, just to let you know I am alright and I am still me. The days I have with you all are wonderful. I hoped to have more of it soon =)

signed off.

Bad mood. Deadly intent

As stated in the title, I don't really wish to say much for this day. Still.....

I started off with a bad mood today, early in the morning. An intent of hate came to me today. Obviously something "wonderful" gonna happen. I just know it. I just sense it. But the worse thing is I don't know why.

Breakfast after EME, I wasn't much in a mood. Just grab my breakfast and sit at a corner to eat alone. My friend join me later and chat awhile but since I am grumpy I just kept my words short and sharp. I lost my appetite when my friend sneeze over my breakfast so I just drink tea for the day. Still even when I am moody, my friend just ask the reason why, asking you got a problem with my social life or in camp but I just tell him nothing to worry about.

SAF day full dress rehearsal today only this time is with the real tailored No.1 uniform. like all rehearsals only today we did twice, two full runs. We have our photos taken today, in our white uniform. =)

On parade I just do my job for the day, nice and sweet, don't want to use up alot of my strength. They just make some sarcastic jokes bout me but they just pick the wrong day. Don't wanna do anything stupid so JUST calm myself down. I am just not in the mood. The bayonet is very nearby... My fingers still hurt from the last injury and I can't clench well still the pain is nothing to me compare the pain in been through emotionally.

The day ended. Just about ready to change and book out, we are called to Fall in at the parade square. Something big have happen and that just made me a little worse. A little splice of anger. Since this matter regarding bout military stuff I cannot say what happen but I do know that it will lead to one month confinement and no pay for the next month, even though its not our fault. great huh....very nice indeed....Hated seems to make me stand aground alittle.

So- I book out for my medical appointment for tomorrow, at 11am. Missed the bus...Cannot call a cab....My dad too tired to fetch me (can't blame him, he work hard for the family)...so I am stranded....wow~

Lucky the Ba Chor Mee seller came to deliver the food to the hungry people in the camp. So 3 guys and Me are lucky to be send home by him. Thanks ar uncle. Took a bus home and reach around 12 am.

Is not long, I can say... before the 2nd me come to reveal himself in this world. My feelings are getting more and more worse. Miserable, Hate, Used. Very soon....very soon.... Don't worry for the people who know me. I am still the nice person you all know and I will be remain as it is.

Full dress rehearsal for SAF day

Today seem to me like the most scariest parade I ever experience. My god.... at least the day turn out quite fine. =)

Well the same things like I always say in ever rehearsal post: wakie wakie, draw arms, breakfast and leave campus on time. Right...here goes.

Like most SAF parades, gotta admit whether I like it or not, is just long and tiring. (who won't for someone who have to stand under the blazing sun for 1 hour 45 minutes or more....) Didn't seem anyone was motivated to go on this parade, in fact I rather go for NDP, and for every parade there is always the warm-up exercise. Everyone was sloppy, even me cause of the so call "first day of the week" I guess but later as day progress our arm drills just work out fine. SO- the schedule for today is real tiring. why?

WARM-UP
FULL RUN REHEARSAL AT 10AM
LUNCH
FULL DRESS FULL RUN REHEARSAL FOR WET WEATHER X2 (one for filming)
DINNER
FINAL FULL RUN IN FULL DRESS

So I guess this is one part of a scary day so we just start of at the full run at 10am. This full run is scary why I say is that is because today has the highest number of casualties. I hear from my friend who was watching from the back said that more than 10+, another I overheard from another contingent is 20+. O.o" Today's morning is really blazing, and I would say even the fittest might suffer from the heat. I got difficulty breathing as I was standing and dizzy spells come to me soon after that. The sound....yea...I hear is the sound of people falling, falling down on the parade square. One by one, the sound of the flags and rifles hitting the floor, I even heard bayonets hit and the medics like every minute running. The parade ISM cut the sequence of the prize presentation, as more casualties fall, he even cut off the trouping of colours. I guess it should be the reason. So the full run didn't turn out to be the whole sequence at all. phew...

Lunch Break! then the Full dress run in our No.1 ceremonial uniform for the wet weather. Did twice, one for the run and one for the filming. In the air condition hall, who wont feel sleepy...especially they talk you listen. Well we pull that one off so left the last final rehearsal.

Dinner, I and a friend came down to bring up the packed food, bottled water and muffins. My second trip to bring up the dinner end up an injury. I drop the snack carton and landed on my hand. Didn't have a second thought what was going to happen and I just pull my hand off the heavy box without knowing the rough pebble floor. I got many cuts on my finger joints and one of it is severe. (I CAN SEE MY OWN FLESH!.. erm hem..why am I so happy bout it...) One of them saw my hand and ask what happen so i just say I did something reckless. Went down to then toilet and wash the wound thoroughly with soap and running water. My finger continuous bleeding seem to catch some attention as I walk by. LOL, so i just plastered it. (ooo..bloody hand =D)

The Last run for the day and also the vetting for the parade. We give our best shot. Took regular deep breaths at the parade. (yea... deep breaths of mosquito insecticide, could be reason why I feel so sick now....) by the time the whole run ends, its already nightfall. Reach back camp, packed up for tomorrow harbour prac at Tuas at 8am (zzzzzz....so farrrr~~~) and head home to rest.